Prologue
When fate deals you a devastating blow, one can only hope that the wind of change is blowing in your direction…
And thus, I stand at the Cross Roads again.
I shall await my new destiny with baited breath and ponder the other times I have stood looking at this very same sight. By design, I am destined to be here time and time again. By knowledge, I understand that it has been willed this way. That does not make any step the easier, but I will choose my path once again. I must research to make it the right choice this time. How I long for another to choose for me! For I know, that until I find my walkway, I am destined to walk alone.
Alas, all the blame lies with me.
Lost passages
Lost in the mist of time, I have become no better than the ones before me. I can not tell where one thing begins and another ends.
Should I place my hope with my heart or let it live trapped within my head? There is no peace with understanding and no understanding comes with peace. I am as lost now as I have ever been before, yet now I find myself too tired to find my way again.
Eternally trapped within my own desires and my own mind, I will continue on following the same paths as before. This path will lead to the same place as all the others paths: no place, no one, nothing… endlessly forever.
And on this day, I once again stand in front of a mirror and look into my own eyes, seeing nothing more. My experiences have blinded me. I can see nothing other than myself: eyes of dread and despair, endless wanderer, dangerous spirit, and the tainted soul. Behind that, lies the face that I show the world. The person that they want me to be, but the person I really am can not be hidden.
As long as I hide, I will never be free.
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Other
“It was all my fault. I know that now, but there is nothing I can change.”
-Catarina Kerr